12:45am

You’re lying awake thinking of every possible thing, some good, and some bad building up scenarios in your head that just seem so unreal. Procrastinating your future and what you’re going to do with your life. You have no idea what you were put on this earth for, no idea what your strengths and weaknesses are. Although you have in mind very few. You feel like a total disappointment because you feel as if your impotent to trying to be something great because the world is so decisive about everything, socially and politically. Is there any good out there anymore? You have dreams, in fact big dreams. You’re too scared to prosper them because you know deep down you’re unsure if you have potential because of how hateful the world is.

Being lost in a toxic world

It’s hard being a teenager, and having a good stable relationship with God. We go through cycles to where we are constantly stressed out about school,family,relationships, and just sometimes just surviving. There will be times in life where we find ourselves in toxic relationships that lead us into temptation of sin. It’s hard to let that go.. we think that person belongs in our lives, because they make you forget the struggles we are facing when in reality they’re straying you far away from God. I myself have found myself in that situation. I found myself lost only worrying about that certain person who built a wall around sin.I felt lost, and helpless. I wanted to talk to God I craved to talk to him, but I couldn’t I felt he was disappointed in my choices.. I only wanted that certain person to fill me up with words and encouragement just to make me feel better just so I would forget about a certain situation for the moment. I found myself not wanting to turn to God.  I was mad at myself for that,and I found myself alone again.  I was trapped,scared, and so alone I had to let that relationship go so I ran to God with arms wide open because I realized he was the only one who would be there for me in the end… Matthew 11:28 “Come to me,all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest”  he is there, he is listening, you’re not alone, you never will be. His arms are always open.